Don't Stop Praying is all I can say, because I stopped. When I found myself hurt and broken once again, I stopped praying. I stopped opening my mouth before God and pouring out my heart. I stopped clinging to Him like the little girl that desperately needs her fathers love. I stopped praying and I started drifting. Drifting into my own desires, wants and dreams. I started to get lured into the smooth words, butterflies and feelings that I even begin to second-guess if purity until marriage really mattered. I rationalized with myself that many people fail at it daily and God would forgive me if I did.
All was a result of not praying. I stopped praying because I stopped believing. I stopped believing for the favor and grace. I stopped believing for the breakthrough, the healing, the restoration, the love and the help. I quit praying and I quit believing which was a result of not moving forward.
I realized that prayer is a foundational key to my belief. Open, honest, raw and unfiltered conversations with God is what I needed and that prayer brought forth a faith and that faith brought forth actions that caused me to move forward.
If you find yourself in a place of heaviness, ridicule, hurt, depression, and anxiety. I suggest you decide it's time to move forward, that one small step is better than no step at all and one prayer can change the trajectory of your life.
I'd love to tell you that I began to pray and all my problems went away, but that's not true. I prayed and my problems were still in my face, the hurt still stung, the trauma still needed to be healed from, but with prayer I received power to overcame, power to face it and walk through it.
Learn from my personal mistakes, that lack of prayer results in a lack of faith and a lack of faith is the reason many of us stay stuck for years wondering when God is going to move and God is whispering to us "Why did you stop praying?"
I know your heart is still unsettled, and you still have a lot of broken pieces, but it's time to start praying again Daughter!
"But when you pray, go into your closet and close the door. Pray to your Father which is in secret and He will reward you openly."