This Will Get Messy, Trusting Gods Contingency Plan

Morgan Tracy J
3 days ago
2 min read

My ministry's 8th anniversary came and went this year. Every year, I provide free coffee for our ministry through a Starbucks code. I make long posts and celebrate all the women that are a part of His Daughter’s Closet, and reminisce on the beginning days of the ministry.

This year, however, was nothing like that…I barely remembered the anniversary, and once I did, it was a bit late. I didn’t make a post, I didn’t tell anyone except two people and the truth was, I felt sad most of that day. And I felt this way because the year prior, it was tough. But I was still doing it full-time, and I was still on track for “my plan”. In July, I felt God pulling me to apply for a teaching position in my area. I fought this, and after two interviews and not getting a job, I assumed God was just testing my willingness. Until I got a teaching position within weeks of school starting.

I was thrown into a job and watched my ministry suffer. I watched how, after a day of work, I could barely muster up the energy to go to the office, shoot messages, or even encourage women in the ministry. I watched things change and it was hard. I felt as if I had failed my ministry because I didn’t have the time to invest like before. I couldn’t take on many opportunities and I definitely couldn’t succeed in the ways I had before.

That day in the office for HDC’s 8th birthday, amid my sadness, I realized that this was the Contingency Plan that God had for me. This route was necessary for me to grow, heal, and change. I had to become that teacher and I had to go through this season. I realized that somehow, even in all the lows, God still kept me. Even when I felt like a failure, God kept me. Even when I didn't have the time or the energy to show up, God kept me.

I know that real faith isn’t produced when everything goes according to our plan, but when we can embrace a new plan with an attitude of love and growth. That we can see the beauty right where we are.

Please know, sis, this life will get messy and our plans will go nothing like we thought, but if we allow God to be God, He will work things out far better than we could. Be okay with it, even when life gets a little messy.

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