After months of falling down, getting back up, and pushing the bounds of my faith, I finally gave up.
Not, on God, but on my abilities. I looked at my checking account and found that I had only $11.00 after paying all of my expenses. This was such a hard pill to swallow. I felt like I was supposed to be more ahead. I felt fear, as I thought about my vision, wondering if it was going to crumble.
So, I jumped up and got to work. I began creating, designing and brainstorming. I tried and I tried until I found myself with nothing except empty pages and screams of frustration. As tears
rolled down my face, I was looking for hope. I was looking for a light, I was looking for direction, I needed a word, I needed the manifestation of my prayers.
Instead of jumping to my feet to create, I fell to my knees and gave up.
I gave up my plan, my route, my ideas, my motives, my views, and my timeline.
This was a battle because I believed letting go would put me more within a hole. But I surrendered myself and let go of every fear and doubt by facing them.
I gave up, and that was the key to gaining more.
The world says hustle and bustle, go and get it, but God says, give up your life to gain it. Let go of your fears and surrender it all to Him. To work in Grace and do all things as if you are doing it for Him.
Being a woman with a vision isn’t easy, but a key ingredient to seeing that vision come to pass is giving it back to the One who gave it to you.
Releasing it back to God and trusting Him to supply for it!
When I gave up and let go, God came through with new ideas, new hope, restored faith and a fire for life again!