Today, I sit and bask at the beauty of God. Another year around the sun, they say. As I was shopping in my local Wal-Mart, I passed the baby section, the strollers, and little girl clothes, and it made me wonder, “did I ever see this for myself?’ To be unmarried, single, and childless at 27. To be honest, I didn't. I just knew I’d be married by 25 with a little family and a husband that loved me. Walking through those aisles, I smiled. Because all my life is a result of me trying to get closer to Jesus.
Nothing about my journey has been perfect, and many nights I wondered why I had to have it so hard. Growing up in a low-income family. Growing up without my biological father. Growing up in an area that didn’t fully accept mixed kids. Growing up hating my hair and certain features. Growing up and getting held back because I couldn’t focus. Failing out of college and all that.
I realized that sometimes the things I wanted to be didn’t compare to things God truly had for me.
The young married mama at 25 wouldn’t be this powerhouse, single woman at 27.
The little girl with her biological father wouldn’t have become a woman appreciative of all the men who played a fatherly role in her life.
The little girl that desired to fit in so badly, wouldn’t have become a woman who built her own community.
The little girl who hated her hair, wouldn’t have turned into a woman that embraces her natural beauty and encourages thousands of women to do the same.
The young adult that didn’t fail out of college would’ve never known about the power of hard work and pushing past adversity for her dreams.
I smile today, walking through the aisles of Wal-Mart. No, I’m not the mommy yet, or the wife like I thought I would be, but I am God's Daughter, and just like a good father, He has given me far more than the things I wanted.
He used every hardship, every valley, every setback, every missing piece to create something beautiful. Everything I had or even lacked, He used for my betterment.
My hopes are that you see everything that God has yet to fulfill he has filled with other blessings. He’s not a God to give you a rock if you ask for food. He’s a God to give you a full restaurant. Keep striving, keep trying, and keep going.
May you never stop trying to be all that God has called you to be.
Always know what God has Already fulfilled You.
"And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus."